On My Own

Happy Monday! Happy Monday indeed.

I must admit that I am ready for a vacation. On. My. Own.

Twenty days ago I was scared, doubtful, worried and nervous. You see, hubby had to leave out of town for work for more than 2 weeks. During that time I became a widow (hypothetically speaking) and a single working mom to 2 active almost 5 year old twin boys 24/7. Yes, I know it sounds trivial and silly because thousands if not millions of single working moms do this everyday.

For me it was a no small feat because hubby and I have always shared our load of raising our kids from taking the twins to school to helping them brushing their teeth. The thought of doing everything on my own for 20 days straight and more scared me. What would happen if I couldn’t do it all – getting ready for school, work, cooking, dinner, etc..? Will my kids be fine or will I go insane?

The past 20 days no doubt astounded me, surprised me and amazed me. While sick I struggled to establish a working routine for the 3 of us. Eventually, I started to get a hang of it even though I was operating in an organized chaotic mode. I learned that while I couldn’t predict any events may occur in the future, I was able to put myself in the best position possible for the best results to occur. So regardless of the outcome, I had to constantly tell myself that everything will be fine. And, that was important for my sanity.

Of course, my home was a mess from the newly ketchup adorning the dining room walls to clothes scattered in every bedroom, not to mention the blog took a huge step back. Surprisingly, I was still able to feed my kids with home cooked meals, got them to school on time if not earlier than usual, and still fulfilled my day job on time in style. While at times I felt vulnerable it made me feel alive.

So today I’m sharing one of the outfits that I threw on for work during that crazy period. When running around like a chicken with its head cutoff you need an ironclad outfit (translation: LBD) that you can easily throw on and still look put together.

During that period, I learned that as I gain new challenges and accept them I shed my old old self and start anew. Although I succeeded through challenges and struggles I now get to appreciate where I am. Hubby won’t be back ’till later this week but knowing that I have a dependable routine I can accomplish anything.